Ojibwe asabikeshiinh

Where are you then?

When the darkness falls,
When the silence prevails,
When the air freezes,
when the stir stops,
When the cricket chirps,
when the life sleeps,
when the bed warms,
when the limbs break,
When the nerves ache,
When the sense fails,
When the eyelids droop,
When the eyeballs squeeze,
when the eyes close,
WHERE ARE YOU THEN?

Picked this poetry online from Qaisar Janjua... @Thx Qaisar!

Friday, November 16, 2012

Watching TV

A lot of driving was involved & parking & reversing. I reached a place - strange, unknown to me. S had traveled to where I was. He wanted to see something on TV. I had a pad there with friends (same ones that I stay with now.) We wanted to see something else probably. But since he was the guest we turned the tv on to his choice. I started working on my laptop. Another of my friends did the same and another started playing with her phone. One was missing. S started cribbing about this not being the way to treat a guest. He wanted all of us to watch the same thing with him. Why?

P.S. I do not think he is too fond of tv anyway. Maybe the past was playing games with my mind when he watched tv in my room for hours. Its tough to let go...  

Ex-Flames

S told me about his ex. Her name was Manisha Das he said. Suddenly that girl had come to the place we were at. We became friendly. In spite of myself, I liked her. Then another girl came there. Her name was Geeta Ganguly. Her features resembled Manisha's a bit. But I felt Geeta was prettier. She was more friendly for sure. I liked her immediately. S was not friendly with Manisha but he was with Geeta. They even shared intimate moments in front of all.. some even gross (no.. not sexually). Like S picking her nose while cuddling with each other. ewww! My other friends were grossed out. I interacted with Geeta even after that (with a heavy heart for sure), but I still liked her. I could understand why S felt so  much for her. She had a very welcoming laughter. I also realized that Geeta was the ex, not Manisha. But then why did he mention Manisha as his ex? I also came to know that Geeta had moved on, so had S presumably. But then why were they cuddling? I also saw another pic of Geeta's batch mate in one of her pic collection. (She was the actual ex - T???)


P.S. Why did I dream of these two girls, who look completely different from his ex? (I have seen her pics btw from what my other friends have told me about her. Her name too is different.) I guess this going on in my brain about what happened between them is messing up things up there!