Ghosts From The Past

I was at dinner with friends in the center of a room. It was a cold place, there was snow in some places. But the tables were not steady, they would move as if on a ship's deck rolling with the movement of waves. I saw him at another table - a ghost from my past, G. One of the friends with me knew our history. She pointed out him to me. I just shrugged and looked down. 'It was in the past', I said.

Suddenly we were at the corner table with few of my other old friends - a blast from the past. One of them was sick. But he was treating us all. Everyone had ordered something. I had come in late. I didnt get a chance to order. He told me to go order something for myself. I told him, once the crowd disbursed from the food counter I would. It was as if the restaurant setting had changed into a food court setting. I didnt see at that time, but he heard me.

A few minutes later, he was next to me with a few menu options and also something ordered as well - something that I liked to eat, once upon a time. I said thanks to him and also said, 'yeh karne ki zaroorat nahi thi'. He laughed and said, 'No issues. mujhe yaad hai mujhe pehle bhi tumhare liye ladke lana padta tha.' He was reminiscing the times past. I could recollect times when in crowds he would stand right behind me to avoid the throng of people who would have other wise barged into me. (This had never happened in real life actually.) I replied, 'woh tumhara farz tha' I meant 'not any more'. I looked down after that, didnt see his reaction. But I could feel his disappointment ringing around me. Everyone could. There was a pregnant pause after that. We spent some time, few days - can not recollect.

The journey was over. The day was bright and sunny. I got down on the port, off the restaurant - dunno. My friend was with me. I had a tear in the shirt on my back. My friend stood behind me and dragged me through the crowd to the nearest loo to change. I was laughing and carefree. It was a walled loo rising over my head but a little below my friend's. She could see the outside. I was changing my clothes when I heard him.

My friend too heard him and raised her head to look at him. 'Why are you here?' she asked. She pressed my head lower so that he could not peep inside. She was only protecting me. She had seen the hurt I had gone through because of him few years back. I was a shattered mess. He said, 'I am here for her.' 'She isn't here', she said and pressed my head further down. 'Mujhe uski khushboo se pata chal jata hai ki woh kahan hai, aur woh yahin hai.' It was as if the years passed were no more and I was the same young girl in love for the very first time. I woke up from my dream then.

P.S. I cried a lot during my shower time because of this dream. I do not need dreams of him so many years down the lane, especially when I hope I have moved on. And when I know he has moved on long back. But I do not know why I dreamt of this. Maybe yesterday's dinner with friends brought upon this. Maybe being in his city brought about this. But I would still not want the ghost from my past to hog my dreams and invade my waking life. Something that cannot be, has to be left undone...

Drive On!

I was at a parking lot. I had two cars to myself - one old without a/c another brand new. I had to take out the old one from the first parking lane and park it in the parallel slot of the second or third parking lane. Some girl came into the parking lot eager to park in the slot I was in the first parking lane. She asked me if the other car was mine. I denied.

Weird dream.

P.S. Thinking of buying a car and driving around with N in her car playing games with my mind!

O Baby Sing A Song

We - me, N & S were at this shopping mart - grocery store kinds. Sale was ending as was the day. The prices of the groceries were increasing. Weird. Probably demand-supply ratio. N said that we will not buy anything as prices are increasing. Then we saw cheese prices were going down. So we decided to buy it. We were the last ones to get out of the store. There were three guys too having fun - singing and playing pranks on one another. It was just five or six in the evening. We were sitting outside on the parapet.

The three guys were a distance away from us gossiping among themselves stealing glances at us. We paid no heed to them and turned our faces away. Suddenly one of them sat on the edge of the parapet and the other two surrounded him. The one sitting broke out into a song loudly. I even recollected the words for sometime, now I don't.

We were shocked for a moment. Then we burst out laughing. "You came back to sing a song?" we asked. They were flabbergasted for a moment. Perhaps they were expecting us to get wild. Instead we laughed. They blinked and then nodded their heads in affirmative. Then they gave sheepish grins and started singing the very same song in a sing-song voice as friends are wont to do when enjoying themselves.

P.S. Shopping - I get it with all the grocery store shopping I have been doing for the past three days continuously. But singing? Now that was a weird one.

Bag-wati

I bought a chocolate brown color bag on sale for 1290/- ... from Nine West? It was a damn good purchase. It was big, rectangular, formal. It had those fish scale looking designs on top. And I was very, very happy with it!

P.S. P buying a white bag playing with my mind.

P.S.S. Oh btw, the title comes from ZNMD. JLT! no reason!

Reconcilations

There were two-three very small rooms. He was in one of them. He was angry and not talking to me. I had to bear the brunt of his anger and make him fall in love with me - again. They were sure he would never agree. I had every faith that he would.

He saw me and turned his face away. It would appear to those standing outside betting on the fate of my relationship that they were right. But it was only me who saw the pain and longing along with the anger in his eyes. That glimpse of the pain gave me the confidence that I was not alone in my suffering to be away from him.

And so I entered the room and shut the door behind me as I approached him lying on the bed determined to do anything within my power to get back my love. (including outright seduction in this tiny room with the others right next to us in the other 2 rooms listening at the walls.)

There was something happening in the other two rooms as well, a part of this probably. But I do not recollect it.

P.S. He looked like Salman Khan. :-P

P.S.S. Something tells me we did reconcile ;-)

Rodent-dream

I saw rats, mice - rodents of all varieties escaping through my room. Eerie!

P.S. The rodent issue giving me shivers in dreams too!

Real Life or....?

Almost like a movie... Or perhaps it was a book I was writing. It was too vivid. He was behind the counter at the bar. In a white chef's dress and chef's hat. He had a French Beard. He looked right at me through his beautiful big, black eyes. He exuded blatant male sexuality. I have never felt so attracted to someone in my life - real, virtual or dream - never in the first look... ever. I was confused. I looked away. But I could feel his eyes boring in to my back. I couldnt stay away, I was drawn to him like a moth to a flame. The scene changed to next day morning. It seemed I had spent the night frolicking with him, but I don't remember seeing a thing. His expressions were stormy. He looked angry as if demanding answers from me. I look puzzled at his face. He shoved a newspaper in my face. There was the news of my engagement in that page with some person. My picture was right on the newspaper page. But there was no picture of my supposed fiance. He said, 'you lied to me'. I replied, 'you were the only one I was truthful to.' We got quiet after that and kept on staring at each other, each waiting for the other to take away their eyes. I woke up and felt it was a movie or a book I was writing. But was I?

P.S. Took a look at my stories after a long time. Decided to pen this one down as a story too. It sure had the potential! Now only if I would find such a guy in real life. :P

The Nearest Mall in Town!

After a long time I went to Shani Mall! :D or shani bazaar, just that it sounds rather tacky and we prefer to call it the Shani Mall. Don't recollect much thereafter, but K was there in the dream.



P.S. her pestering me to go there with her for the past few weeks combined with all my hair clips breaking suddenly day after day perhaps made me think that a visit to Shani Mall is imminent. Lets see - 2 days to go to Saturday!!!

Confessions of a Shopaholic!

Hazy dream. Saw some delivery arrive at the PG for me. There was N and we were discussing the items delivered.


P.S. Too much shopping online and offline short-circuiting my brains!

Blinking Lights

I saw blinking lights, as in a multiple field choice where you get to select which field you would like the new question from. Although these lights were of no game. But somehow the fields were significant. Remember none of the fields now.


P.S. Strange!

Mapping the city

I saw maps... google maps. I think it was the map of Ahmedabad, showing directions to Adalaj Ni Vav.

P.S. I think I saw it because M asked me about the distance of Adalaj Ni Vav from the main city. But then today I ended up opening Google Maps to help my roommate to locate an address in Noida. Again deja vu?

Home Alone...

I was in a coed dorm kinda place. Or was it a house? Anyway, my housemates were not at home. There was some function they had to attend. It was just me and V? There were two bathrooms - one generally used by girls and another generally used by boys in the house. To save time and since no one was there we thought of utilizing both. So as V used the one that we generally used, I turned to the one nearer to the guys room. While I was setting my toiletries inside, the guys returned. G was among them? He told me in a rude tone, 'I want to use it'. I removed my stuff and went outside, kept my stuff on the table there and waited for the bathroom to get free. Then I remembered taking off my ear-rings and rings and keeping it on the counter next to the basin.

By this time V had come out so I used that bathroom. Besides rest of the guys had returned. When I came out this one was free as well. I went to look for my rings, but they were not there. I went to look on the table thinking G kept them there, but they weren't there either. Found few beads necklace lying on the table, one of them gifted by me to V. I was wondering to whom the others belonged. I knew each little item owned by my female housemates. I was feeling jealous of the girl to whom these belonged, as I felt G had given it to her.

My dream shifted to something else.

P.S. I never gifted V a necklace. And I don't know why I saw G after such a long time!

Deja-Vu?

I saw my office, distinctly remember seeing P there. There was a new girl in office. She had come for an interview perhaps or to meet someone. P seemed very interested in the girl. I told him, remember you are married. He laughed it off.

P.S. And today there was G in office. P asking P who she is. deja-vu?

Just recollected more of the dream. She had come to give an interview for the post of Product Specialist. She had done her PhD from the States and had just returned back. She had a sweet face and the sweetest voice possible.

P.P.S. I don't trust sweet people! :P

A lost past...

I had a niece, a very cute little girl. We were in a big Entertainment room with lots of big leather chairs and lots of kids. I sat with her on one of the big sofa-cum-leather chairs right in the front as we watched an animation movie playing on the big TV screen. She was enjoying immensely. I had to leave to go to work. So I went out and asked my father/ brother-in-law (?) to look after her, but they were going as well to work. So I went back in and asked her to leave with me so that I could drop her home and then proceed to office. She refused, she was so engrossed in the movie. I didnt feel like disturbing her so I asked the Caretaker over there if I could leave her there and she could watch over her for few hours till I could get back. She agreed.

So I left, taking a last look at her. But I felt guilty soon for leaving her behind and I rushed back. Half an hour had passed since I left her there. But when I got back she wasnt there. I asked the caretaker, but she had no idea. I shouted at her and looked frantically around for my niece. But I could not locate her. After sometime my brother came back with her. He was pissed off at me, I could feel. But he didn't say a word to me. Just set her back on the same chair she was in. She was smiling and again enjoying whatever was on TV at that time. But she looked a little worse for wear. She had a bump on her forehead, which looked painful to me. But her smiles were sweet and including me in them. And her hair... they were bleached blonde? Why? She had dark brown hair before I left her there. I felt so, so guilty. And I woke up feeling sad.


P.S. For the records, I just have one nephew, no nieces! And my brother is long gone...

Up and down

I saw myself in a big building with lots of staircases, corridors and people. Not too crowded since the building was huge, but still many of them. I was going down and going up the stairs. Then suddenly I was sitting in front of a huge desk with P to my left. B came over there and was talking to P about something (can't recollect what).

P.S. spending too much time in office I guess.

Changing Views

Saw myself talking to P, when I am not talking to her for the past two days. It was a happy sort of chat.

And I remember seeing my address... supposedly at Jasola. It seemed as if between two paragraphs.

P.S. too tensed up I guess

Temple Bells

There was a huge temple. I went to ring its bell, people were staring at me as if fearing that I would ring the bell and something would happen. It was a little on the higher side, I jumped twice-thrice to get my hand up till the gong. The bell rang but nothing happened. Why were they staring at me?

P.S. No clue

To Be Or Not To Be...

I saw that I had added D to my FB friend list. I wondered why I would do it since I have been somewhat avoiding him. Thoughts swirled in my mind, that he will be tracking me on FB. Who doesn't leave a comment here and there on FB? I was in doldrums.

P.S. checking out his profile on his brother's FB page who already happens to be in my friend list is taking a toll on my mind! :P

A Ghostly Encounter

Was traveling in an SUV with few friends through a road. Saw a couple sitting on the side. Dunno why I felt as if they were ghosts. I shouted, "bhoot, bhoot!"

P.S. found myself stuck in a position (sleeping on my left side facing the wall) unable to move. Had to say the Hanuman Chalisa to get out of it. :P (Yeah I do that too! :P) Felt my mom sleeping next to me on the other bed. But when i woke I was all alone in the room.

After Effects Of Attending A Wedding...

Had to attend a marriage on the other side of the town. S waiting along with me. We both personally knew the bride. Somehow my boss and one of my colleagues was also invited. (don't recollect on whose side). We were supposed to go with my boss to the wedding.

There was a meeting on going which my boss was attending along with my colleague. It was already 6:30 p.m. Would take at least 2 hours now to get to the marriage site. I was getting anxious, S more so than me.

The NRI with whom my boss was having the meeting got out and he too left for the wedding. Dunno how he was invited as well.

After half an hour my boss and colleague got out and we left for the wedding.

P.S. Maybe N's wedding playing a toll on my mind :P